Monday, 25 December 2017

Old Flames and Hometown Sweethearts

Top: H&M | Skirt: Monki | Boots: Zara

It's Christmas time which is also means it's the season for old flames and rekindling long-lost romances. Opportunities for second-chance romances arise and now you finally have the chance to talk to that cute boy two grades above you in high school. Now that you're running into old flames around town or at that bar everyone you know from high school will hit up (which is exactly why I'm writing this blog post now), you're probably faced with the question: Should you take advantage of the situation?

For me, coming back to my hometown is always such a strange feeling. It’s like time stands still there. I usually don’t deal with my emotions and I always try to leave agony and misery behind and move forward. This results in a lot of feelings I totally forgot about coming back to the surface.  Everything just hit me like a brick in the face when I ran into an old flame the other day at the bar. I  had my back turned towards him the entire night and I most definitely didn't invite to conversation.  While I tried to convince myself that I didn't want him to approach me, I knew deep down that I was dying to talk to him. Just knowing his presence was in the room made me weak at my knees. When I went to the restroom to look myself in the mirror and make sure I didn't have spinach stuck in my teeth, I saw my 15-year-old self in the reflection. I felt all silly and giggly about the whole situation but when I came back to my senses, I remembered that "friends", with whom we have history with, are not ideal candidates for a holiday fling. There might just be too many emotions at stake when you remember each other from the days of braces, acne and questionable fashion choices. Besides, going home for the holidays is a weird time to start something new. The cosy, Christmassy, romantic vibes in the air of way too familiar settings makes it so much easier to fall into the arms of an old flame. It's all very tempting, but is it ever a good idea to go after something you already consider a closed chapter?

While I'm still trying to convince myself that avoiding communication was the best thing to do, I can't help but think what if...? Would rekindling an old love mean that you have to be prepared for long distance relationships and deep talks about “what went wrong between the two of you all those years ago”? But what if you come back next year, meet in the same spot and then they’re married off to someone else? The good thing is that you will all be leaving town again as soon as the holidays are over, but the history you have together could make things a little more complicated (and more meaningful) than of you were to approach someone completely new. If you are looking for that special someone, maybe this is the right thing to do? If you never try, you'll never know what could happen. What if your past meets your present and it all comes together in a moment of perfect bliss? Sometimes what you’re looking for has always been right under your nose...

Would you ever hit up an old flame?

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